Ok, I cannot or will not lie about today. There is no sugar coating here. Was not a good day for me. I am not sure anything was different…I just couldn’t handle the noise or the schedule today. It was me.
I have 3 beautiful boys. Each one of them gave me a tender moment. That is what I want to hold onto for today.
ELI- we went to wal-mart today. We HAD to get chocolate milk. He wanted down. It is just us, well baby Sam too, but he doesn’t move on me much. So, I let him down to wander while I follow. Usually, we go to toys. But, today (I should mention here, it is a new big wal-mart for us) he went to side section where they keep plants and gardening stuff on the side. Today, they had Christmas trees and decorations. Eli, went right to the trees with a big smile on his face, “Look it, ma!,” and started spinning around to the Christmas music that was playing. What a sweetheart.
SAM- sometimes we get to talk while I change his diaper. I goo over him and he wiggles his eyebrows with a smile. Today, i gooed and he did it right back at me with an amazing smile that said, “Yes, I am amazingly cute, ma!”
JOSH- Nine o’clock and daddy is still not home from a church meeting. Yes, I am done. So what do I do? As usual, cry. Defeated. I have my eyes closed sitting on the edge of my bed holding Sam, crying, Josh is wiping my tears with the edge of my blanket and says, “Mommy, your eyes are too wet,” with a sweet smile that says it’s ok.BEAUTIFUL BEAUTIFUL BEAUTIFUL baby boys I love you dearly!